So I haven't written in ages. Part of the reason for the hiatus is that I am pregnant. OK lame reason. I mean my grandmother had 11 kids and one bathroom. I have 1 child and 4 bathrooms. Nanna lived on next to nothing and raised all these kids to be wonderful adults. She move to the US when she was 14 with her sister and not much else. She didn't even speak the language -- never did. Her mother had already moved here but she didn't really live near her. I don't have family near me either but I don't think I have my shit together half as much as nanna. Ever since I was pregnant with biddles I have missed her greatly. She died when I around 7 years old and because she never spoke english we didn't speak much. I really wish I had more time with her.